I woke this morning feeling like an emotional piece of shit. Whenever I get like this, I find the best thing I can do is shut the head up by painting, drawing, creating. Simultaneously, I watch YouTube interviews. "The Chase Jarvis Live Show", has recently become a go-to. Today, the first video that came up, was an interview with Brené Brown, entitled "The Quest For True Belonging". Coincidentally, I ordered her new book, "Braving the Wilderness" last night. Timely I thought. Everything they talked about was a big wow-wow-wow! These are the squirrels going through my head right now. And it's normal. Cool.
Then my smart tv choked (it's not so smart), and I had to restart – grrrrrr. Somehow, when I was trying to fast forward to get back to my spot in the interview, it went to the next video. Annoying. Another grrrrrr. Until I read the episode title, "Real Artists Don't Starve" with Jeff Goins. I looked at what I was painting, then back, pressed play. I'll get back to Brené after this. Again, exactly what I needed to hear, exactly when I needed to hear it, and strangely in the order I needed to hear it. I then went back to the Brené Brown's interview, and felt like I got a whole college course education. I could have used that course when I was in College or University. Perhaps if you're reading this, you can use this as well, here are the YouTube links:
The picture for this post, is of my latest work in progress. This is what I was painting while I listened to the interviews. I think those interviews help me to paint better. I don't get stuck on getting the image right and over focusing. I'm able to let go, and enjoy the process. I feel clearer with what I'm doing. Maybe it's because I have these voices saying – "me too", "everyone feels this way", "it's suppose to take time" – these videos are like a really good friend who's not bullshitting you, giving you the truth, and encouraging you at the same time.
And that's all for now, I'm going to publish this before I second guess. Thanks for reading.